That feeling when writing

4 months ago | SKHenry (Member)

So I've been a reader for as long as I can remember. I always loved reading and I always will, but I feel like I've reached the peak of reading, where now I want to write something of my own.

So I've been trying to write something for years now, but I never gone past ideas, little snippets or short stories. (That's on me, cause you know, no planning, I get easily distracted, etc.)

What I wanna talk about is the feeling I get when I do write something. It feels like I'm doing everything wrong, there is just this gnawing in my brain screaming "No!". It makes feel like everything I write is shit, like there is a level I haven't reached and its a frustrating feeling. I guess I want to know what it is...

Is it that i'm comparing what I write to too high a standard?
Is it because I feel I haven't captured what a envisioned?
Maybe its because I've yet to find my voice as a writer?
Or is it because a expect to much out of a first draft

I'm not really looking for answers, more like I felt the need to rant a bit and maybe see if anyone is getting what I'm saying and experiencing the same thing.

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  1. Scott Scherr (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    Hello SK. When I start to read a book, it's very seldom I get immersed right away. Being an avid reader, I'm sure you understand that point when a story grabs you and doesn't let go. For me, writing must be the same way. It's a real sonofabitch getting started, getting invested in my own words, but once I'm there it's the same feeling of getting lost in another world that doesn't let go. There's a lot of different ways people write, I suppose, but that's how it works for me. When I'm struggling to get words down on the page it's usually because I'm getting in the way. Sometimes I have to push a bit to get the wheels moving, but if that world I've started has a life of it's own, then it's a just a matter of time before I'm there again. I believe that may be the point you're struggling to get past going from a reader to writer. If an idea is sound and the story is there, then you just have to find what works for you to remove yourself from the equation and let the story flow. When I'm immersed in my own tale, I'm often surprised by what ends up on the pages, and I love that. I do a lot of planning and plotting understanding that there's a time to plan and a time to shut the hell up and just write and see what happens... lol. That's part of the magic or mystery behind writing that I don't dare attempt to explain. I often believe good stories are already written and all we're doing as writers is tapping into it and acting as scribes to the whole experience. I don't know if any of this helps your particular situation or not, but I hope it helps. Writing is addictive as hell when the momentum is there and you're easily connected to that world. I believe a lot of the work involved in writing is training yourself to get there as quickly as you can and just allowing our characters to take us where they wish without our interference.

    Author of the apocalyptic series, Don't Feed The Dark. http://freezombienovel.wordpress.com
  2. LadyAnder (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    A lot of novice writer jump in feeling a lot like you. Usually they've unrealistic expectation on their writing skills. They go in thinking that they'll write like the novels they have read or they've build up their writing abilities in there mind. When they actually start putting words to paper, it's not what they expected.

    The truth is learning to write takes practice. Dependent on the person it can take a lot of practice. Finding your voice and writing what you envision it in your mind takes practice. You probably aren't going to learn it all writing a single story and it's certainly not going to perfect off a rough draft. You get that off of a polished draft. All writers have to edit their work on some level.

    So you will be making a lot of mistakes and you won't be writing anything of quality right off. That's just all part of the journey.

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  3. SKHenry (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    @LadyAnder @Scott Scherr Thanks for your thoughts on the matter. Its really appreciated.

  4. BGHilton (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    Hey, SKHenry. If you're a starting writer, I'd strongly recommend looking at the blogs or social media or writers you like. Firstly, you can get some pretty good writing tips that way. And secondly, you'd be surprised how much uncertainty and self-doubt there is even with well-established, popular authors and that might make you feel a little better about your own doubts.

  5. sunflowerofice (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    I was starting to feel like maybe i shouldn't keep up my story despite it only now being near the top of the new novels to be reviewed, but i have a follower now and i get comments on new posts and that is enough to keep me wanting to do more because there is at least one person out there who will have a story they read that would never exist without me.

    that said worries can happen but just keeping at it for that one person is what i am doing. well that and because i love making up stories. its part of why i dm for dungeons and dragons.

  6. Dary (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    Go watch some artists on YouTube, and note how many of them start out with a very rough base sketch that they build on over time.

    That's how writing works. That base sketch is your first draft. It's not supposed to be good - it's supposed to give you some foundations on which to build something good.

    Start rough, start broad, and only worry about the little details when everything else is in place.

  7. theredsheep (Member)

    Posted 4 months ago

    I've been working at it for more than a decade now; the pile of not-good-enough work I've started and then abandoned when I realized it had fatal flaws would be longer than A Song of Ice and Fire if you printed it. Thankfully, most of the old files are corrupted or lost.

    Writing a novel-length fantasy work requires a number of aptitudes; I have a talent only for basic craft and worldbuilding. Everything else--plot, pacing, character development, etc.--I had to teach myself by repeatedly failing at it. Even now, I'm discovering things I haven't acquired the knack for. You just keep plowing forward, and don't expect any reward beyond the work itself.

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